July has been getting crazier than ever with everything, so I'm going to try and sum it up in bullet points. It is not even over yet and I still another appointment at Hershey to wrap up the whole month. I will do the best I can so that I don't ramble on about all the changes because each day I feel like there is something new to take on. Some days its very small other days it feels like I hit a brick wall, but either way like the blog title says, (courtesy of the bracelet Tara got me that is such a great reminder) I will get through it because I'm tougher!
- July started as an adventure with the 4th. My first day time seizure! That was my first performance with people around and it felt like all eyes were on me.
- 5 days later, July 9th I was just casually walking to class, (yet another experience) while finishing up crossing the road, two girls had to help me take my medicine.
- By July 13th it became more comfortable to be helped on the side of the road. Almost second nature by this point :P
- The medicines were increasing, but so were the seizures and so were the side effects. Headaches, tiredness, irritability. It was a slippery slope.
- Soon enough I was having more than one seizure per day.
- July 19th, after meeting with a neurosurgeon at Jefferson, I had 6 seizures that day and that number has fluctuated between 5 and 9 until today (July 28th) I only had 3. Maybe my stress levels are finally decreasing.
- Meeting with a neurosurgeon was tough, but whatever this thing is I am excited for it to come out and for the seizures to just end (I know I haven't talked about what it is exactly, but we won't know for sure until it is out so its all up for debate).
-I deferred my grade for my summer class and decided to do an independent study over the next year to make up for what I missed because of the stress, medicine side effects, how all my appointments have fallen, and when my surgery may fall.
- The most recent thing to take in is that I won't be recovered enough to be back for the fall term. That is really hard for me to take in. Missing a part of my senior year is a thought that constantly makes me sad, but I know that I will not miss all of it and will be able to go back part way through to enjoy it with all my friends!
I think that covers almost everything. If I missed anything whoopssss! We can blame it on my new medicine that causes some minor memory loss ;) Thank you for reading so far. I'll update after Tuesday. Hopefully I'll get better as I go